I came across this really cool video on Babble.com and felt compelled to repost it. It may just be the pregnancy hormones and the fact that I cry at the drop of a hat nowadays but I thought it was a tear-jerker.
When you’re on the prenatal side of motherhood, it’s so easy to think you’ve got it all figured out. I mean, Lord knows I’ve read enough books to make up my mind about sleep training, attachment parenting, and juggling a full-time career with motherhood. But, let’s be honest, you and I both know that I haven’t got a clue! Just like nothing could prepare me for the roller coaster ride of pregnancy, I won’t know what kind of parents we’ll be or child we’ll have until this little girl makes her way into the world and we actually get a chance to start the whole process of trial and error.
I think what I liked most about this video were the number of moms who realized they really needed to cut themselves some slack. We’re our own biggest critics sometimes, don’t you think?
Mike and I recently had a conversation about when I should go on maternity leave. I’ve been planning to work up until delivery while my HR department (and nearly every mother I know) is encouraging me to take some time off before my due date. He finally said to me, “What’s your goal for working up until the minute your water breaks? To prove to the world that you’re hardcore?” To which, I shamefully had to admit, “Ergh…maybe a little.” He simply explained to me that all I’m doing is proving something to myself – that everyone else knows that I’m a rock star and frankly, no one else really cares that much one way or another.
Needless to say, I realize that I have a tendency to impose this incredible pressure on myself to be the best at things and I have no doubt motherhood will top that list. This video – especially the reminder that “I will make mistakes.” – was a really nice wake up call. Being the best isn’t all it’s cracked up to be and frankly, who the hell am I competing with anyway?
Enjoy your weekend – I’m off to feed my soul with a visit to the orphanage. There’s something about going there that reminds me of who I am and who I want to be – which is pretty nice considering I’ve been a little caught up in my own head lately!