Hello there, little one.
I figured this week’s belly was worthy of two angles – a front and side view. I’m about ready to pop and I know that because everywhere I go people make a point to let me know that I look like I’m due any minute now. I have a difficult time getting out of cars, up from couches, or rolling over in bed. Even my maternity clothes are starting to get a little snug and the dresses are becoming mini skirts – thank God I’m no longer working and can spend my days in yoga pants and t-shirts.
Other than that, I feel great. I thought for sure from everything I’d heard I’d be struggling by this point. I was expecting a ton of swelling, backaches galore, and every other sort of late stage pregnancy ailment but so far so good. I’m not comfortable by any means but all in all, I’m doing okay.
Everyone is getting really excited for your arrival! Your dad is pretty much beside himself. He calls and texts me throughout the day to see if maybe, just maybe, it’s time. He talks to you before bed every night and reminds you that he’s really ready to meet you – I think he’s about five minutes away from literally bribing you to come out. And your grandparents…forget about it. All four of them are on pins and needles and every time I call them they’re sure it’s because I’m in labor.The funny thing is, I’m probably the calmest of the group – which is a huge surprise to me! I think that I’m really aware that once you’re out, you’re out for good so I’m trying my hardest to cherish each movement, kick, and jab. I know that soon enough, I’m going to have to share you with the rest of the world and I’m enjoying these final selfish moments where our bodies are one.
These past nine months have been some of the best of my life. I’ve chronicled each milestone we’ve celebrated and obstacle we’ve overcome. I’ve had some serious heart to hearts with you, imagined what you’re going to look like, sounds like, and smell like, and thought long and hard about the kind of mom I want to be and relationship I hope we’ll have. In short, I have LOVED having you with me every minute of the day, little girl.
I am also really excited to get this party started! You are going to love exploring this world and all its beauty. We will make sure you always know that you have unlimited opportunities to be whoever you want to be and do whatever it is that makes your heart sing. I just know that you are going to inherit the best qualities in both of us and be a little beacon of light in the lives of everyone you meet. You will be kind and thoughtful, curious and hungry for knowledge, compassionate and capable, and determined and ambitious.
You will change our lives for the better – you already have.
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t hoping that this is the last weekly update for us – I’m ready for you to arrive anytime now. I’m no longer scared of how this part of our journey will end but confident that you and I are so connected, we will know exactly what to do when the time comes. I trust that God will light your path and protect us both along the way. I’ve worked really hard these past few months to get myself to a mental state that can write those words and honestly mean them. I am very proud of my progress and feel like I’ve done my best to give you the calmest environment to grow and develop. I promise I will continue that work in these final days and especially during those last hours when it’s so important. I hope and pray that your entry into the world is as gentle and peaceful as possible and will do everything in my power to ensure it is.
Here’s to me and you, babycakes. You have changed me as a woman and a human and I can’t wait for the next leg of our journey to begin.
All of my love,