** Sorry this is so belated. I wrote it weeks ago but I guess I forgot to hit post until now. A 16 week update is coming soon!
Dear Lemon Drop,
We’re testing out nicknames for you and after telling your Nona that the doctor compared you to the size of a lemon, she started calling you lemon drop. We’ll see if it sticks.
This was a big week. We officially announced your existence to the world and now that everyone knows you’re a reality, our excitement is growing stronger by the day. I’m definitely showing so there was no chance of hiding the pregnancy for much longer anyway. I swear the day I told work was the first time I actually exhaled fully since I was eight weeks along. Not because I was nervous about telling them but because I finally embraced the ponch growing out of my midsection.
Just like clockwork, the first trimester ended and all the nausea and food aversions I’ve suffered these last few months went with it. Thank God. It’s so nice to eat like a normal person again! The last round it was all about orange juice all the time but so far I haven’t had any extreme cravings yet. I’ll be interested to see what’s in store for the next few months.
Unfortunately, my intense mood swings have not dissipated yet. I’m a little worried they’re going to last for the entire nine months which may push your father over the edge since he receives the brunt of my anger most of the time. I’m not sure why I feel this way but I’m just trying to be patient with myself while I work through all of the emotions that course through my body on an hourly basis.
And I’m still tired. But, I think that’s less to do with hormones and more to do with the fact that I don’t sleep anymore. The pregnancy dreams have been fast and furious and I find myself wide awake at all hours of the night trying to interpret nightmares about cockroaches, collapsing buildings and burning stairways.
Aside from all that, everything is progressing normally. At my appointment today, I had the pleasure of seeing your cute little face on camera again. I don’t know how I keep getting so lucky but both pregnancies I’ve had doctors who love ultrasounds. I know most women only get three or so their whole pregnancies. I feel incredibly blessed that I get to see you on a monthly basis!
Your heart beat is 156 and you’re about 3.5 inches long already. I forgot how fast you start growing at this stage. It seems like you double in size each week and I feel like before I know it, I’m going to feel you start kicking around in there.
We took a little family vacation to Yosemite with your Grammy and Bampa this week. It was so beautiful and your sister had an absolute blast on her “adventure.” I got excited at the thought of camping their with you guys someday. I’m not much of a camper but with kiddos running around I think it could be really fun!
We’re actually considering waiting until the big day to find out if you’re a boy or a girl. I have a hunch – not a preference, a hunch! – but I love the idea of being surprised in that moment. Your dad was reluctant to come around but some neighbors of ours have nearly convinced him. Everyone thinks we’re crazy because if we don’t know the sex we can’t properly “plan” for your arrival but I’m not too worried about it. I probably would’ve picked gender neutral nursery colors like I did for Savannah anyway. And clothes – we could just buy those online as soon as you’re born. We’ll have to see how long we can hold out because of course, there’s always the chance we can cave at any minute!
I started acupuncture which has really been helping with some of the extreme side effects I’ve been feeling with this pregnancy. I’m also going to enhance my yoga routine with at least one more class each week which will be nice. I am very mindful that I was a very calm and focused pregnant woman with your sister and I want to do my best to channel that energy again this time around. So far, our lives have been a little crazy but I have no doubt that if I focus I’ll be able to carve out the time for you and I to bond everyday the way she and I did.
I can’t believe we’re going to meet you in just six short months. I’m dreaming of maternity leave and doing nothing but sitting in the rocking chair in my pajamas and memorizing all of the details of your little face. I hope you love our family as much as we already love you!
Keep growing, baby.
Love, your mama